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February 14th, no body special to call
good company, your papered wall
now i understand that life goes on,
still i wonder how i cross your thoughts
you improve me, even from a distance
you can move me, when I'm heavier than hell
you saw right through me when i wasn't seeing well
its been a year and a day since i lost my mind
and I wanna tell you that i messed up, i lost my mind
but how know where the hell on earth you are
and who knows if i can get that far, but anyway
you improve me, even from a distance
you can move me, when I'm heavier than hell
you saw right through me when i wasn't seeing well
you loved me, enough to leave
and you shoved me,
because you believe in my heath - and yourself
and you should know ..
you improve me, even from a distance
you can move me, when I'm heavier than hell
you saw right through me ...
now i am better,
I've mostly got my mind together,
and I've got the world to tell,
you saw right through me when i wasn't seeing well
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| people say friends don't destroy one another.. what do they know about friends? |
[02 Jan 2009|05:28pm] |
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FUUUUUUUUUUUUCK YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
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I hope that our few remaining friends
Give up on trying to save us
I hope we come up with a failsafe plot
To piss off the dumb few that forgave us
I hope the fences we mended
Fall down beneath their own weight
And I hope we hang on past the last exit
I hope it's already too late
And I hope the junkyard a few blocks from here
Someday burns down
And I hope the rising black smoke carries me far away
And I never come back to this town
Again in my life
I hope I lie
And tell everyone you were a good wife
And I hope you die
I hope we both die
I hope I cut myself shaving tomorrow
I hope it bleeds all day long
Our friends say it's darkest before the sun rises
We're pretty sure they're all wrong
I hope it stays dark forever
I hope the worst isn't over
And I hope you blink before I do
Yeah I hope I never get sober
And I hope when you think of me years down the line
You can't find one good thing to say
And I'd hope that if I found the strength to walk out
You'd stay the hell out of my way
I am drowning
There is no sign of land
You are coming down with me
Hand in unlovable hand
And I hope you die
I hope we both die
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| So, I fucked her what of it? |
[23 Dec 2008|02:19am] |
One day Ima learn hoe ass niggaz ain't worth my while
Funny style actin, dirty maccin, playa hatin, contemplatin, fuckin my thoughts up
I get caught up in this bullshit, the way bitches pull shit
Niggaz be jealous, sometimes even my fellas
Things change, niggaz rearrange what can ya tell us
Life is bullshit, and I know that this is true
Sometimes I feel depressed, what can a nigga do?
Aint no way out, only way out is the route of a slug point blank at my mug
Sometimes I just wanna scream at the world, I'm mad
Other times I feel happy just to be sad
I don't really got much more to say
cus people die everyday, and we gonna all die anyway
Its kinda hard, but who said life was fair
And from the dookie stains in my underwear
I Don't Care
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| from the land of pain and pain pills. |
[01 Mar 2008|05:02am] |
well,
to start i'm on a bunch of pain pills, I hurt my back about a week ago and couldn't walk for a few days. what's really dumb about all that is I managed to do this while reading the text on a box.
also, i have a broken tooth which is causing me a bunch of pain.
so yeah pain pills are flowin' like water here. I have a root canal coming up which should be the superest of fun.
here it is march and, i have not done half of the shit i planned on doing.
I have felt like the past 10 months have been just draining the life out of me.
I am far beyond lay, and even though I've been working out here and there and, cleaning and sorting like a mad man i think i've gained about 20 pounds.
so to summerize i fell like complete shit , i'm in a ton of pain, and i feel a bit out of sorts and a bit fat.
that's is all ,
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| Time For MILF And Cookies. |
[25 Jan 2008|06:08pm] |
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Well,
It's a new year... and it's been a while since I've actually wrote a real update and, all that.
So,
I figured I'd just state some of my thoughts and, things i have learned from last year to this year.
Point One,
I have learned that my friends are a bunch of asshats and, A lot of them are making a exit out of my life with the quickness. If you wanna hate... go right ahead just remember you'll just be talking to a bunch of people I also don't like or hang around with. I am in the market for new friends and, a new life ... It's the way shit goes ... It's happened time and time befor and it'll happen again.. . OH WELLZ.
Point Two, I need to learn how to program and, more importantly algebra help... If there are any code wizards or math wizards that can help me out with that .. and not just bitch about how stupid I am and all that .... that would be AWESOME!!!! If you could also explain that shit in simple language i could understand .. that would be wonderful.
Point Three,
This Presidential shit is driving me fucking crazy... I'm sick of hearing about it.. The Truth of the matter is The person that puts the most money/effort into it shit will win.. and there is very little difference between all the fuckers up there .. right now it's the less of 10 or 12 evils... I hate all those fuckers and all of them just waste our money and lie.. it just varies how.
Point Three Point One Four,
I am sick of High Yellow Black people crying about "OMG OH NOZ!!!! RACIST COMMENTS!!"
seriously between the Tiger Woods "lynching" thing .. which i'm sorry if every one was such a pussy with TV and shit she could of said "KICK HIS ASS!" or "Beat the shit out of him!" and that would of been a ton better... then There is the "racially charged comments." about barakka oparabama bin laadin .. which serious does anyone really consider him a "black man" seriously .. he is like the biggest cracker I've ever seen .. I would be will to say G.W.B has more soul in his heart then that man...
Point Four,
I really hate that "mainstream news" is getting to be 50 times worse then the tabloids these days and, that they even interview fuckers like that dude from TMZ. Look WHO THE FUCK CARES about a good 98% of the shit you report these days? a majority people I would hope they did not.
And seriously stop making up fucking stories when it's a slow news day. "HILLARY RACIST!!!" is not a story when she's talking about MLK two days befor the fucking holiday. Anything about britney spears ... WHO FUCKING CARES!!! I do feel them announcing where heath ledgers body was so everybody could go and stand in the way of cops and the people trying to get his body out of said place .... is rotten... and i hope there is a speical place in hell for these fuckers.
Things I have learned,
I shouldn't stick my penis in no one ever again it always turns out bad in the end, I don't really need people as much as I once did.. even though I do miss a hand full of them, Dating girls then being friends with them can sometimes make for awkward times, People in this time period have way too much time on their hands and, way too look shit to do that is necessary.
I mean back when you had to beat a random birds brains in to eat I don't think this hole vegan thing would of worked out for you too well... maybe it's just me.
alright that's about it for now .. and that turned out totally different then what i thought about over the past few days .. but oh well.
later everybody
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| There's a thin line between a love and a fuck... |
[20 Jan 2008|02:15am] |
I became for you when you would ask, telepath
Your to young to ask out loud, I'm to old and I know that
I can talk like you've not heard, I know weapons, you think words
I expose you to these terms, you still chose to roll on her
Have to work but I'm so fast, your so open, I'm so crass
I'm to weak to hold that back, you still think intrigue will last
Can't imagine of my past, I just can't explain all that
I wish I could trade your place, so romantic full of faith
I must spare, I must learn, I refuse to be your first
First to put you in your place, first to make your speech IMPase
I'm a man now, good or bad, your a girl still, good for you
Don't think this don't make me sad, this is something I must do
Keep your own time, leave me be, I'm tryin to spare you
Tryin to be god melodic, man on fire, god i'm long gone, all desire
Fuck you raw now, it's my fault
Fuck you raw dog, I can't stop
Should of listened, should of left
I can't stop unless you jet
It's so simple, open head, I will knit my savage threat
Help me help you, walk away, leave this on amazing grace
You don't know from pure disgrace, you still think I'm here to save
I'm not even really here, I can't give what I can't take
What a ride, what a slide under the door, what a score
You think I'm a genius, I know I'm a whore
What a time, what a climb in for our lives, whats in store
You seen live forever, all I see is war
I will pull your hair back, fuck you on the floor
Pour myself into the act, pour myself, oohoo I'm bad
Cause I know these moments end, but telling you the truth is sad
You deserve the ignorance and bliss that I still wish I had
Don't you let me keep you here, don't ignore my greatest fear
I need you to not need me you need not believe just flee
I will put myself inside you, find some way to run and hide you
I can't be responsible, do as I say, not as I do
Keep your own time, leave me be, I'm tryin to spare you
Tryin to be god melodic, man on fire, god i'm long gone, all desire
Fuck you raw now, it's my fault
Fuck you raw dog, I can't stop
Should of listened, should of left
I can't stop unless you jet
It's so simple, open head, I will knit my savage threat
Help me help you, walk away, leave this on amazing grace
You don't know from pure disgrace, you still think I'm here to save
I'm not even really here, I can't give what I can't take
This is not my ego talkin, I know I'm not perfect raw
And I do love the way you lay there, I do like the way we talk
Maybe I'm just condescending, maybe this thing isn't wrong
Maybe you should lay right there, put your hands up in the air
Keep your own time, leave me be, I'm tryin to spare you
Tryin to be god melodic, man on fire, god i'm long gone, all desire
Fuck you raw now, it's my fault
Fuck you raw dog, I can't stop
Should of listened, should of left
I can't stop unless you jet
It's so simple, open head, I will knit my savage threat
Help me help you, walk away, leave this on amazing grace
You don't know from pure disgrace, you still think I'm here to save
I was never even really here, I can't give what I can't take
You still think I'm here to save
You still think I'm here to save
You still think I'm here to save
You still think I'm here to save
You still think I'm here to save
You still think I'm here to save
You still think I'm here to save
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| If ........ |
[11 Nov 2007|10:29pm] |
if i had 1 million wishes to use whenever i wanted...
a good half of those would be wasted on befor bedtime blow jobs.
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[11 Oct 2007|02:29pm] |
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last time i wrote this down it was a little more then 2 years ago in april.
at that time it was snowing and shitty .. i was going to get my teeth worked on after a long week and a extra long night of working at the hotel.
feeling quite like shit.
i feel kind of the same way .. only it's not snow today ... it's rain
ENJOY.....
"damn!,
what does my calender date say ?
i can see my breath outside and it's late may .
this is not conclusive to a great day .
man i wanna breathe in the sun ...
yeah , i just want to sleep the day away .
get up and go outside and see a brighter day.
not when i can get around to it but , right away .
i always said i'd leave the city i love
and , no matter where i rest the bean i'm always thinking of...
been in the same city my hole life and , still no wife
it's time for big mike to get his groove back
and, maybe if i bounce it'll just proove that
this is where i always needed to be and then i'll just move back.
but, now it's time for me to expand
and , it ain't about the music cause i got my own fans
yeah , i toured the hole world and it was part of my plans
but , now i need a couple months of chillin' in the hot sand
watch my hunny hit that dope complexion of honey brown
hit the spot in the cadi and run around
maybe i can clear my head in the sun rays
and , live how my boys use to talk about "one day's..."
tired of being surrounded by the drugs and the gun play .
i promise i'll be back but, for now big mikes gotta
BREATHE IN THE SUN
befor my sanities gone ..
instead of stressing over something from night till morn.
sometimes the only thing you can do is move on !"
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[04 Oct 2007|05:47pm] |
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{*alarm ringing*}
"Oh my fucking god man, ahhh. fucking serious"
Jesus Christ, man. already?
Man, time flies like a motherfucker."
Rise and shine!
Yet another day to toss away
What does my clock display?
It says eight
Shit, I'm late for work again, so then
I dip with my pad and my pen
Step into the work place with my work face
Wince at my time card cuz I'm scarred
Mad cuz I sacrifice my day and gets me
A trifling hourly wage of six fifty, nifty
Now I'm off to slave quarters
With a whole bunch of other people's sons and daughters
Working so they can be mothers and fathers
Laboring real hard, hoping the boss offers
More petty cash to his bums and paupers
Kissing his ass cuz they hoping they prosper
Here's the math:
You work a thirty a day, away
The government takes a thirty a check, correct
You go home and drink cuz you don't get
An ounce of respect, and your spirit is wrecked
Life is a gift to be enjoyed, every second every minute
It's temporary, not infinite
Yet I find myself looking at the clock
hoping for the day to fly by, so I ask myself "Why?"
I'm doing this remedial work for second graders
I'm an educator with mega-flavor, so
Maybe I should just jump up and get ill
Maybe I should let these people know they're being killed
Maybe I should try my very best to chill, and get paid
Cuz I gotta pay bills, raa!
"Excuse me brother, can you please stop making that noise
so I can talk? Thank you. Now the boss says he wants you to come up
with more copies of these checks, and the last thing he wants is you to
move the desk to the basement, and can I have this stapler?"
("Hey there champ, big boss man says you been late
3 days in a row, better sharpen up")
Aw, this fucking place sucks - same shit everyday
Like to wring the boss' neck though, if only dreams could come true
Dead boss, somebody call Red Cross
I guess he got caught up in my mental holocaust
How much did it cost?
Just a little piece of my mind for peace of mind
"But he's bleeding!"
Oh no, leave him. He'll be fine
He'll heal on his own
if you just give him some time
Considering the fact that his face is misaligned
His legs are over there lying right next to his spine
"Lunchtime!" Huh? Oh, Jesus, must have been daydreaming
My boss walks by, he's looking just like an asshole
Smiling because he jerks niggas for minimum cash flow
He's cool to my face but I swear I heard him laugh though
Tickled by the fact that I'm the modern day Sambo
And just when I think that I'm about to go Rambo
I call up my man and he says he understands, yo
We all are being murdered by a similar process
Whether you work at the candy store
Or slave at the office
The purpose of our life is just to serve the economy
They misinform our minds to paint a picture of harmony
But if you listen then you know that shits out of tune
Cuz the function of our life is just to work and consume
Fuck reaching out to help the next, there ain't any room
Just close your eyes and block your ears and march to your doom
But since I really ain't getting paid for my time
I pulled out my pen and started writing a rhyme
Can't you see that I'm busy, jerk?
Don't you dare approach me with busy work
Take another step and get hurt
By the man that embodies mad years of anger
A cool bro, soon to be the Boston Strangler
Everything inside of me is about to erupt
Cuz a righteous individual just likes to corrupt
I knew he'd lock me up if I started a brawl
So I deaden, and I punch the clock the fuck off the wall
"Yea that's right motherfucker
you can't keep underpaying people and mistreating them all the time
That's gonna resort to crime."
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[25 Sep 2007|10:17am] |
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for those of you that have missed the boat of complete metal face fisting.. go listen to the cd for free thanks to AOL link below.
dethklok dethalbum = MOTHER FUCKIN' METAL!!!
it is so damn good it's ridiculous.
I would venture to say this is one of the best metal cd's i've heard in years.
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| BUSH HATES BLACK PEOPLE! |
[16 Sep 2007|09:02pm] |
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( what one of my buddies at www.drunkenstepfather.com had to say about it! )
Which i think a good 90% of which is right on the money and i agree with but, I will just add,
I am the biggest fan of black people, and hip hop or "rap music" I've listened to just about every hip hop song that i have had the ability to listen to at least once. There is a good deal of hip hop that is completely awful, and that's being nice. when it comes to the fucker above. his old cd was ok, last cd was barely passable. This cd is horrid. Come on seriously and pulling the race card .. you can't be serious at all... cause yeah MTV pretty much sucks on the dick and swings from the nuts of every black guy in a five mile radius, on top of that .. one of the ones you are bitching about you lost to black eye pea's but i guess they are racist too cause not everybody in the group is not full black .. even though william owns everything to do with the black eyed peas and his own company. But i guess him cause he's not owned by 5%'rs (sorry white people you have no idea what a "five percenter" is) ANY who .. this guy is a ok producer at best, a really shitty rapper, and a complete asshole. it has nothing to do with you being a "nigger!!!" it does happen to have something to do with being a nigger that doesn't make good music. OH and on the N-word... black people really don't want to be called that for the most part. I think it's kind of hard to not want to be treated or called a nigger and then you act completely what makes everybody want to look at you and call you a nigger.. it's something to think about .. how you conduct yourself is how your viewed ... britney should learn this lesson so people don't think she's the only multi-millionare that lives in a trailer...
just saying ...
haha
later all
P.S. he is more then likely right though on one thing .. bush prolly does hate black people, but not as much as mexicans .. he is from texas after all.
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| words of wisdom from the land of romania... |
[12 Sep 2007|11:46am] |
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so while riding up in the elevator with my friend and co-worker franz...
there was this girl .. she was ok .. but this other girl missed her floor and we had a laugh about it .. once this girl got off i said to franz
"she wasn't that bad looking .. but i really loved her smile."
he said back to me
"it doesn't matter, to any man when they think of the perfect girl .. the way you imagine her .. She's a whore!!!"
so profound and very true..
that's all folks.
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| Why is satan such a dirty dick licker! |
[30 Aug 2007|09:22am] |
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NATAS!!!!!!!!!!!! |
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in light of the past few weeks i've had here are some lyrics that i find reflect my exact thoughts on what is going on in my life at the moment .. i will also be posting what all exactly happened to make this such a fine choice.
"I need a bitch on my dick fuck a friend
Let me know now, if no dick goin' in!
If ain't no ddick rubbin' again your clittit
I wanna hit it where you split it or maybe where you shit it
I admit it i don't give a fuck if you got a man
I'm thinkin' about fuckin' you raw but you wouldn't understand
Sometimes I sit alone scratch my balls and think of you
your feelings might get hurt, i'm pervert bitch it's true. oh yes it's true.
your man don't know how to treat you when he fucks you he should beat you
now bitch go get my money and let that trick ass nigga eat you.
and if you come up short i'm putting my foot up in that rectum.
bitches know my style by the way i disrespect 'em
you gotta let 'em know it's always money fuck a hoe
if dick ain't in your big booty you gotta go
I need a bitch on my dick fuck the dumb shit
why should i be head over heals for this trick she makes me sick to my stummic
never let me rest never let me just fucker
save that drama about you don't fuck cause you's a dick sucker.
i'm not here to diss you or put your bidness all up in the streets
but when you lick your lips like that you let natas know you was a freak
so, we gonna fuck you one at a time i know this dick is on your mind,
but you can't be my friend step daddy draws the line
between a pimp and hoe, no i ain't nobody fucking play with
when you finally share that pussy i'm gonna fuck you like a rapist
if there ain't no dick going in let me know i'll let you go
if your that hoe i'm lookin for then drop your panties at the door
if ain't no dick going in I don't see the purpose of being your friend
visions of hittin the skins while you be sippin' my sperm like a heineken
i'd rather fuck with you cause i heard your pussy be good like a snapple
I wanna see my dick in your neck like a fuckin adams apple.
don't play me like a brother cause i'm a mother fucker
i fucked your mother with the steal toe that bitch i loved her.
i might be your daddy so i guess this would be incest
so play with my dick like recess while jack you in your breast.
if this don't sound good to you let me know what do.
i'll fuck the pussy dry till i turn it black and blue.
you say i'm talking crazy i'm just laying it on the line
if you ain't suckin' dick young trick don't waste your time.
see you hoes don't understand
A man wants to fuck
A man wants his dick sucked
if you act like a little girl
you don't want a nigger like me to rock your world.
cause i'm fuckin' bitches till they get stitches
they ain't getting no riches
they just getting what they getting
HAA HA HA HAA..... bitch !"
and just so i won't get asked this was dictated by me
and wrote by Esham , TNT and, MasterMind
Natas - Propalactic Tacticz
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| New York is on some BULLSHIT! |
[31 Jul 2007|07:54pm] |
Top Ten things I hate about the rotten apple.
1) The fact that if you don't make over 300k a year you should forget living anywhere cool or good!
2) The Ladies: Stuck Up, Shitty, Most of them talk as if they are extras in movies about Jersey retards in the 80's, Or any 80's movie were bitches talk as if they are fucking retarded,
3) Driving: bunches of people that don't understand what a lane is.. and 9 times out of 10 they are driving in yours towards you!
4) Cost of living vs. Money: you make shit ... everything costs a lot more ... i mean A LOT MORE. plan on paying at least double for everything .. if not triple or quadruple.
5) Money Vs. Shit to do: see above .. if you ain't got $100 to toss away don't plan on doing anything cool at all.
6) People In General: there are millions of people in this damn town that are at times 4 inches away from you .... these people will never ever talk to you even if you hit them with shit (which has happened) and if you try to talk to them you are the biggest asshole in the world.
7) The Transit System: Delays, reroutes , all the crazy peoples , fires, steam... lots of steam, swamp like conditions at most stops, and lots of bullshit!
8) Movie Theaters: haven't these assholes heard of a fucking of early show where the movie is cheaper ... oh no i guess they haven't .. also expect to pay at least 10 if not 12 bucks.
9) Mindless Jobs For Shit Pay: you'll do something you should be getting paid a lot more for .. but your doing it for the same rate as the kid serving coffee up at starbucks.
10) Crazy People : I've had guys come up to me .. fart and laugh then walk away at least twice now.. and seen a guy running down the road in a diaper to just note two .. it gets much worse.
i could go on and on .. but this will sum it up nicely... night y'all !
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| Hello lover faces! |
[29 Jul 2007|09:08pm] |
there are a number of things i will never understand in my lifetime,
A) blaming violent behavior on video games.... i could ramble on about this for hours on end but, I'd rather just quote david cross - "what was those violent video games hitler played?"
and i'll go on by telling you all about something that vikings loved to do to torture people. you would think this would be used to get information but, no they really just loved killing people in the most rediculoid ways.
this method was called the "blood eagle" the viking preforming the blood eagle would start by cutting right below the rib cage, then reaching up into the chest cavity and pulling out the lungs of the poor soul.. that's not the end of it, they wouldn't pull them so far out that they kill them oh no, they would pull them out just enough so they could place they're lungs on their own chest thus letting the victim see his still working lungs heave the shape of which looked like an eagle bleeding to death. the vikings found this funny and yet entertaining .... so yeah a video game doesn't make you do shit you didn't already want to do!!!
B) These shows like Flava of love , FOL:charm school, Rock of love and, Scott Baio is 45 and single... these are my crack... I am hooked! BUT, in watching these shows i am dumbfounded sometimes by them. Other times I realize things that are the absolute Truth. one of which is on the Scott Baio show... Miss Joanie tells Scott that the reason why they had sex was he was "growing" which was a nice way of saying he was horny and kept getting a boner every time they was together. this in turn he took it as she was trying to tell him he had a little wiener!
It's funny most men do not want to admit it, but they would would think the same thing. As soon as something is said like "little" is said by a woman, the man has had sex with them they think that they are talking about their dick.... nothing will ever change this cause no matter how big your tool is. as soon as you put it in a female it is up to her opinion. this is the wrong way to think about things, but men can be stupid sometimes. Long story real short ... ROCK OF LOVE IS THE SHIT!!! Skank hoebags fighting over a washed up rock star. WONDERFUL!
i had a lot more to go with this but i have been writing this for the past few days and i have kind of forgot where i was going ... haha
chew on that!
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[20 Jul 2007|05:26pm] |
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What kind of God is this?
Gave me the hottest bitch
Then took the life from her chest and left a pile of shit
Sloppy with a fork, so Chris gotta feed her
To numb to cum, sometimes she piss while I eat her
I tell her, keep her head up
Even though I gotta hold it up for her
and she seizure when she try and get up
I know I'm perking her
But can't stop what's hurting her
No sleep with her screaming all night, I'm thinking of murking her
Her parents paid for the coffin and left state
After signing the contract, do not resuscitate
Yellin' for mommy
I dip in the morphine to calm me
I'm known in town as the creep that's into zombies
I can't get that sound you make out of my head
I can't even figure out what's making it
Stare in her eyes to look past horror
Morphine tolerated, I'm out coppin' horse tranq for her
Like I won't have to go through hell again
Her skin is like saran wrap, barely hangin' from her skeleton
With each one of her ribs defined
My crib's designed
To keep the light out cause she can't lift the blinds
Drifting behind, I'll be outta friends soon
Nobody visits the guy that keeps the body in his bedroom
She's barely alive and taking life from me
With no appetite but the meningitis is still hungry
Wants to make love
But I had to substitute it with holding hands while we take drugs
I can't get that sound you make out of my head
I can't even figure out what's making it
She's cold as a corpse
And still holding The Source
Up in the air like: "One day the cover is yours"
Took the IV out her wrist
Tried to give me a kiss
Before I tasted her lips, she dislocated her hips
Started shaking
Couldn't feed her no medication
To scared to beat on her chest in fear It'd cave in
Death waved again and each time leaves her
In a coma, for a week, to wake up to more seizures
But this time ain't like the rest
I can see right through her chest
And see her heart ain't got no fuckin beats left
Then a voluptuous ghost falls from a host
Looking like she did in High School then fades when I get close
I can't get that sound you make out of my head
I can't even figure out what's making it
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I have not updated in a while .. a bunch of shit has happened, but i have not quite felt up to the task to bitching (in type form on my livejournal) about it. maybe later .. who knows?
anywho,
yesterday i woke up about noon, i barely rolled out of bed, took a long piss, day dreamed about a few ladies in my life that i can only day dream about, took mrs. depping too the store where we bought a trunk full groceries. among these groceries i bought myself 4 new york strip steaks, a 6 pack of Samuel Adams cherry wheat beer, a water mellon, two things of cheese, some shell pasta, among other things. after getting said things i put away said groceries... then grilled up 3 steaks, cut up said watermelon and had a few beers.
as i sat there eating what could be described as a wonderful meal to say the least. I had a revelation. God did some things right .. i mean everybody always harps on "how could there be a god if babies die, and how could god allow this to happen .."
i was sitting there, thinking .. "god did some sweet shit .. he made watermelons, and cherries... also he made wheat ... and beer and the combination of them make sweet tasting wonderful ambrosia. so he did ok, and he made cows ... and they make milk .... and milk keeps my cereal from tasting like crap.. and they can be made in to steaks ... go cows..... and you can make that milk into fucking cheese ... holy shit maybe those people that worship cows had this in mind .. but then why would they not eat or drink of the wonderfulness that is the cow? ... "
right in the middle of the revelation i was outside finishing my beer, and i overheard the next door neighbor girl speaking on the phone with a friend. in this conversation i heard her say "people can live life in such a frabization..."
this thought expressed from the dumbest of white females put my brain stem on tilt.. and then i thought "god is much like me ... he did his best and his best got shit on... no one thinks about the good things cause there are fuckers in the world that out shine those wonderful beautiful things that happen in the mean time."
this thought can fully express how i feel about my life.
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