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Feb. 15th, 2009 @ 01:56 am i know i've been doing nothing but posting lyrics for months but not much has changed... sorry
Current Music: OMG
February 14th, no body special to call
good company, your papered wall
now i understand that life goes on,
still i wonder how i cross your thoughts

you improve me, even from a distance
you can move me, when I'm heavier than hell
you saw right through me when i wasn't seeing well

its been a year and a day since i lost my mind
and I wanna tell you that i messed up, i lost my mind
but how know where the hell on earth you are
and who knows if i can get that far, but anyway

you improve me, even from a distance
you can move me, when I'm heavier than hell
you saw right through me when i wasn't seeing well

you loved me, enough to leave
and you shoved me,
because you believe in my heath - and yourself

and you should know ..

you improve me, even from a distance
you can move me, when I'm heavier than hell
you saw right through me ...

now i am better,
I've mostly got my mind together,
and I've got the world to tell,
you saw right through me when i wasn't seeing well
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please god kill me!
Jan. 2nd, 2009 @ 05:28 pm people say friends don't destroy one another.. what do they know about friends?
Current Mood: FUCK YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Current Music: FUUUUUUUUUUUUCK YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I hope that our few remaining friends
Give up on trying to save us
I hope we come up with a failsafe plot
To piss off the dumb few that forgave us
I hope the fences we mended
Fall down beneath their own weight
And I hope we hang on past the last exit
I hope it's already too late
And I hope the junkyard a few blocks from here
Someday burns down
And I hope the rising black smoke carries me far away
And I never come back to this town
Again in my life
I hope I lie
And tell everyone you were a good wife
And I hope you die
I hope we both die

I hope I cut myself shaving tomorrow
I hope it bleeds all day long
Our friends say it's darkest before the sun rises
We're pretty sure they're all wrong
I hope it stays dark forever
I hope the worst isn't over
And I hope you blink before I do
Yeah I hope I never get sober
And I hope when you think of me years down the line
You can't find one good thing to say
And I'd hope that if I found the strength to walk out
You'd stay the hell out of my way
I am drowning
There is no sign of land
You are coming down with me
Hand in unlovable hand
And I hope you die
I hope we both die
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I'M FAT !!!
Dec. 23rd, 2008 @ 02:19 am So, I fucked her what of it?
One day Ima learn hoe ass niggaz ain't worth my while
Funny style actin, dirty maccin, playa hatin, contemplatin, fuckin my thoughts up
I get caught up in this bullshit, the way bitches pull shit
Niggaz be jealous, sometimes even my fellas
Things change, niggaz rearrange what can ya tell us
Life is bullshit, and I know that this is true
Sometimes I feel depressed, what can a nigga do?
Aint no way out, only way out is the route of a slug point blank at my mug
Sometimes I just wanna scream at the world, I'm mad
Other times I feel happy just to be sad
I don't really got much more to say
cus people die everyday, and we gonna all die anyway
Its kinda hard, but who said life was fair
And from the dookie stains in my underwear
I Don't Care
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please god kill me!
Mar. 1st, 2008 @ 05:02 am from the land of pain and pain pills.
well,

to start i'm on a bunch of pain pills, I hurt my back about a week ago and couldn't walk for a few days. what's really dumb about all that is I managed to do this while reading the text on a box.
also, i have a broken tooth which is causing me a bunch of pain.
so yeah pain pills are flowin' like water here. I have a root canal coming up which should be the superest of fun.


here it is march and, i have not done half of the shit i planned on doing.
I have felt like the past 10 months have been just draining the life out of me.
I am far beyond lay, and even though I've been working out here and there and, cleaning and sorting like a mad man i think i've gained about 20 pounds.

so to summerize i fell like complete shit , i'm in a ton of pain, and i feel a bit out of sorts and a bit fat.

that's is all ,
end
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please god kill me!
Jan. 25th, 2008 @ 06:08 pm Time For MILF And Cookies.
Current Music: Pisssssstons BasketBAAALL!
Well,
It's a new year... and it's been a while since I've actually wrote a real update and, all that.

So,
I figured I'd just state some of my thoughts and, things i have learned from last year to this year.

Point One,
I have learned that my friends are a bunch of asshats and, A lot of them are making a exit out of my life with the quickness. If you wanna hate... go right ahead just remember you'll just be talking to a bunch of people I also don't like or hang around with. I am in the market for new friends and, a new life ... It's the way shit goes ... It's happened time and time befor and it'll happen again.. . OH WELLZ.

Point Two, I need to learn how to program and, more importantly algebra help... If there are any code wizards or math wizards that can help me out with that .. and not just bitch about how stupid I am and all that .... that would be AWESOME!!!! If you could also explain that shit in simple language i could understand .. that would be wonderful.

Point Three,
This Presidential shit is driving me fucking crazy... I'm sick of hearing about it.. The Truth of the matter is The person that puts the most money/effort into it shit will win.. and there is very little difference between all the fuckers up there .. right now it's the less of 10 or 12 evils... I hate all those fuckers and all of them just waste our money and lie.. it just varies how.

Point Three Point One Four,
I am sick of High Yellow Black people crying about "OMG OH NOZ!!!! RACIST COMMENTS!!"
seriously between the Tiger Woods "lynching" thing .. which i'm sorry if every one was such a pussy with TV and shit she could of said "KICK HIS ASS!" or "Beat the shit out of him!" and that would of been a ton better... then There is the "racially charged comments." about barakka oparabama bin laadin .. which serious does anyone really consider him a "black man" seriously .. he is like the biggest cracker I've ever seen .. I would be will to say G.W.B has more soul in his heart then that man...


Point Four,
I really hate that "mainstream news" is getting to be 50 times worse then the tabloids these days and, that they even interview fuckers like that dude from TMZ. Look WHO THE FUCK CARES about a good 98% of the shit you report these days? a majority people I would hope they did not.
And seriously stop making up fucking stories when it's a slow news day. "HILLARY RACIST!!!" is not a story when she's talking about MLK two days befor the fucking holiday. Anything about britney spears ... WHO FUCKING CARES!!! I do feel them announcing where heath ledgers body was so everybody could go and stand in the way of cops and the people trying to get his body out of said place .... is rotten... and i hope there is a speical place in hell for these fuckers.

Things I have learned,
I shouldn't stick my penis in no one ever again it always turns out bad in the end, I don't really need people as much as I once did.. even though I do miss a hand full of them, Dating girls then being friends with them can sometimes make for awkward times, People in this time period have way too much time on their hands and, way too look shit to do that is necessary.
I mean back when you had to beat a random birds brains in to eat I don't think this hole vegan thing would of worked out for you too well... maybe it's just me.


alright that's about it for now .. and that turned out totally different then what i thought about over the past few days .. but oh well.
later everybody
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I'M FAT !!!
Jan. 20th, 2008 @ 02:15 am There's a thin line between a love and a fuck...
I became for you when you would ask, telepath
Your to young to ask out loud, I'm to old and I know that
I can talk like you've not heard, I know weapons, you think words
I expose you to these terms, you still chose to roll on her
Have to work but I'm so fast, your so open, I'm so crass
I'm to weak to hold that back, you still think intrigue will last
Can't imagine of my past, I just can't explain all that
I wish I could trade your place, so romantic full of faith
I must spare, I must learn, I refuse to be your first
First to put you in your place, first to make your speech IMPase
I'm a man now, good or bad, your a girl still, good for you
Don't think this don't make me sad, this is something I must do

Keep your own time, leave me be, I'm tryin to spare you
Tryin to be god melodic, man on fire, god i'm long gone, all desire
Fuck you raw now, it's my fault
Fuck you raw dog, I can't stop
Should of listened, should of left
I can't stop unless you jet
It's so simple, open head, I will knit my savage threat
Help me help you, walk away, leave this on amazing grace
You don't know from pure disgrace, you still think I'm here to save
I'm not even really here, I can't give what I can't take

What a ride, what a slide under the door, what a score
You think I'm a genius, I know I'm a whore
What a time, what a climb in for our lives, whats in store
You seen live forever, all I see is war
I will pull your hair back, fuck you on the floor
Pour myself into the act, pour myself, oohoo I'm bad
Cause I know these moments end, but telling you the truth is sad
You deserve the ignorance and bliss that I still wish I had
Don't you let me keep you here, don't ignore my greatest fear
I need you to not need me you need not believe just flee
I will put myself inside you, find some way to run and hide you
I can't be responsible, do as I say, not as I do

Keep your own time, leave me be, I'm tryin to spare you
Tryin to be god melodic, man on fire, god i'm long gone, all desire
Fuck you raw now, it's my fault
Fuck you raw dog, I can't stop
Should of listened, should of left
I can't stop unless you jet
It's so simple, open head, I will knit my savage threat
Help me help you, walk away, leave this on amazing grace
You don't know from pure disgrace, you still think I'm here to save
I'm not even really here, I can't give what I can't take

This is not my ego talkin, I know I'm not perfect raw
And I do love the way you lay there, I do like the way we talk
Maybe I'm just condescending, maybe this thing isn't wrong
Maybe you should lay right there, put your hands up in the air

Keep your own time, leave me be, I'm tryin to spare you
Tryin to be god melodic, man on fire, god i'm long gone, all desire
Fuck you raw now, it's my fault
Fuck you raw dog, I can't stop
Should of listened, should of left
I can't stop unless you jet
It's so simple, open head, I will knit my savage threat
Help me help you, walk away, leave this on amazing grace
You don't know from pure disgrace, you still think I'm here to save
I was never even really here, I can't give what I can't take

You still think I'm here to save
You still think I'm here to save
You still think I'm here to save
You still think I'm here to save
You still think I'm here to save
You still think I'm here to save
You still think I'm here to save
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please god kill me!
Jan. 6th, 2008 @ 06:13 pm this was fun.. now i'm bored
1. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Special:Random
The first article title on the page is the name of your band.

2. http://www.quotationspage.com/random.php3
The last four words of the very last quote is the title of your album.

3. http://www.flickr.com/explore/interesting/7days/
The third picture, no matter what it is, will be your album cover.

4. Use your graphics program of choice to throw them together, and post the result as a comment in this post. Also, pass it along in your own journal because it's more amusing that way.

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please god kill me!
Nov. 11th, 2007 @ 10:29 pm If ........
if i had 1 million wishes to use whenever i wanted...

a good half of those would be wasted on befor bedtime blow jobs.
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please god kill me!
Nov. 5th, 2007 @ 11:42 am WAKA WAKA WAKA WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO DONKEY KONG!!!
Current Music: Cage - Left it to Us (ft. El-P, Aesop Rock, Tame 1, Yak Ballz)
I've been told i have looked like a few people in the past and present. all of which i have never understood cause i don't really think i look like any of them.

but here's some of the newest ones

Aesop Rock


R.A. The Rugged Man


Sage Francis


Which prolly means i should become a pre-washed up Fat White Rapper .. what do you think?
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I'M FAT !!!
Oct. 11th, 2007 @ 02:29 pm I rock like Donuts
Current Music: The Perceptionist - Breath In The Sun
last time i wrote this down it was a little more then 2 years ago in april.
at that time it was snowing and shitty .. i was going to get my teeth worked on after a long week and a extra long night of working at the hotel.

feeling quite like shit.

i feel kind of the same way .. only it's not snow today ... it's rain

ENJOY.....


"damn!,
what does my calender date say ?
i can see my breath outside and it's late may .
this is not conclusive to a great day .

man i wanna breathe in the sun ...

yeah , i just want to sleep the day away .
get up and go outside and see a brighter day.
not when i can get around to it but , right away .
i always said i'd leave the city i love
and , no matter where i rest the bean i'm always thinking of...
been in the same city my hole life and , still no wife
it's time for big mike to get his groove back
and, maybe if i bounce it'll just proove that
this is where i always needed to be and then i'll just move back.
but, now it's time for me to expand
and , it ain't about the music cause i got my own fans
yeah , i toured the hole world and it was part of my plans
but , now i need a couple months of chillin' in the hot sand
watch my hunny hit that dope complexion of honey brown
hit the spot in the cadi and run around
maybe i can clear my head in the sun rays
and , live how my boys use to talk about "one day's..."
tired of being surrounded by the drugs and the gun play .
i promise i'll be back but, for now big mikes gotta
BREATHE IN THE SUN
befor my sanities gone ..
instead of stressing over something from night till morn.
sometimes the only thing you can do is move on !"
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I'M FAT !!!